Meditation Ritual: I saw my soul today

I watched as the candle flames became eyes
Watching me as they flickered, but I was not afraid
My soul made of light and energy flowing through me
Vivid energy growing through every blood cell
Crawling through my skin, I became cold
But I feel the warmth surrounding me
Purple swirls collecting and draining from crystal
Into my hands, flowing like blue electricity
My skin is melting off of me
Unneeded flesh that holds me back
I smell temptation, I want to let go
Let me be free, it does not want me to be free
"I am the power, the power is me"
Over and over, a calming whisper
Reciting through my mouth
Spilling through the atmosphere
I see through closed eyes
I see through the clarity inside my mind
The flames are dancing brightly
I see myself above my body
I feel my spirit being lifted
My arms have chills
My skin melts like a puppet without strings
Drooping inwards, a flower with no life left
The crystal in my palms slowly falls from my grib
I see water in my mind, I am the water
Ebbing and flowing
Every move is slowed down
Every touch is enhanced
My spirit is striped from my body
I see only energy swirling around me
It's embrace holding me
I am breathing slowly
Pausing to focus on the images inside
My eyes roll back, as I hush to the melody
I am the power, I have the power
The moon appeared inside my mind
I spoke with her
She placed her trust inside my veins
I bowed my head and said:
Forgive me, I am not like my kind.
She understood me
She knew I was her child
My goddess; my mother, maiden, crone
She watches over me in the putrid sky
Endless infinity devours mystery
We only fear what we do not understand
She told me this:
Do not judge what you do not know
Follow instinct and I will guide you
Life is a dream that we control with intuition
We can not make sense of what is unknown
[Thus she is who granted me a desire so rare. I wish not to be a mortal. I will live with harmony and grace. Destruction does not belong. Thus it was her who said blood is the wine that will be your sacrifice. Drink to what we see inside ourselves. And know I will shine above to protect you always, my child.]
And thus I awoke from this timeless journey
Time stood before me unsure of where I had been
Replacing the seconds with curiosity
A single flame catches my attention
Dancing brightly in the dark
It's heat alone is not enough to keep my body warm
But it gives me strength to move on in life
And if you were to ask me why I am
Who I have chosen to be...
I will simply say, mortals are quite stupid
We were born with love,
But we use love as a reason to kill
"You can not kill what you did not create"
Perhaps every being, needs to know
Why, I am ashamed of the human race.